Saturday, May 30, 2009

Unraveling the knots of the past 6 weeks

So, a fine Saturday morning it is. I'm sitting here with my coffee cup, waiting for Jay to come and pick me up. We're going to take a little excursion for a few hours around south central Kansas today. It's not that I don't have anything to do-my goodness, I've got boxes sitting in here that I dragged home from school and all kinds of stuff piled on my table. My house is sort of a wreck and we're gonna have "company" this evening, so why am I not going to be home today? I dunno.

The last day of school was semi-uneventful. We had a staffing meeting which didn't go well-a parent became defensive and difficult, but dealing with that is all part of the job. Friday was spent cleaning up two offices and completely moving out of one, personal files and all. They're sitting here on the floor waiting for me to do something with them. It sometimes takes a few days to get unwound when you been tightly focused, so I'm waiting for the unraveling to start. Next week there's stuff for me to do-I have plenty on my agenda including, planning a wedding reception here for my son and daughter-in-law. It is scheduled for June 13. Her family will be coming from Wisconsin, so it'll be a nice thing for her to be able to visit with them and show them their apartment and around town. I've agreed to help out with VBS (why oh why?) and I'm continuing to help with women's group this summer at church. I have relinquished leadership responsibilities, however.

I see the brother has arrived so I need to wrap this up. Maybe one thread will untangle today as we're driving. Or not (knot). (ha!)

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Wisconsin IS a nice state...

We're back from Wisconsin and now, it's catch up time. If you read my brother's blog, you'll see that he managed to blog TWICE while we were gone to Wisconsin. I don't know how that man does it, but the word for him today is "overachiever".

We had a lovely, albeit short, trip. In the car 4 out of 5 days, we traveled 3000 miles or more (about 900 one way). The wedding was "non-traditional" in a lot of ways, but very sweet and will be a special memory. In our short time there, we were able to travel up to the northern part of the pennisula for a fish boil and some sightseeing. It is spring there and the lilacs and other flowering bushes and trees are spectacular. I enjoyed seeing my family again, and am so appreciative of their efforts to attend and be a part of this special occasion. I ended up with a lovely daughter in law out of the deal, so all is well.

We got home and unpacked, took the rental car back and retrieved Lydia, who about wiggled out of her skin right there in the waiting room when she saw me. She was glad to come home, but she's been doing a lot of scratching and biting since she's been here-I wonder if she has fleas. Great. I'm going to have to see about getting her some relief this week because it seems pretty severe.

It's off to work this Tuesday morning. 4 more days to go, but busy days they will be. I wonder if we'll have kids who don't return to school this last week. See you later.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

It's too early

It's 5:40am, I've been up since, oh 4:00am this morning. I just took my son to the airport to catch an early flight to Wisconsin. Now I'm kinda wound up, so thought I'd write a little before going back to bed. The husband will be getting up in a few minutes to go to work so we have an early start to this Saturday.

I was going to relate some difficulties from work that I've had this week, but I don't want to go into it. It's sufficient to say that I had to remind myself again that I'm not doing this job to make other people happy. Right now there are some who wouldn't give you a wooden nickel for my expertise, and that's ok with me. I have to answer to somebody bigger than USD 259 and as long as I can do that, then I am well. I just need to remember that as I'm tossing and turning, replaying scenarios and conversations, and conversations I'd LIKE to have, but can't, and all that. You know how it goes.

Maybe more later today.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Thursday Trivia

It's Thursday morning, and in 3 days time, I have 34 hours in. Not bad, huh-oh, this doesn't count the 2 hours I worked last night at home. Correction-I have 36 hours in. Today I'll be leaving for work early as we have a staff meeting at 7:50, but I might actually make it home before 6:00 today, depending on how much I get done. For those of you who are in the field of school psychology and who every once in awhile read this blog, but probably have given up because there's not enough work-related commentary on here, I might mention that I've now used the Cross Battery Assessment to analyze test scores in order to determine how much a child's lack of English language might be affecting test results. It's a handy tool - contact me for more information if you're interested. I've been working with a student who has significant language loss in their first language (Spanish), but who isn't extremely fluent in English either. Quite a challenge.

I don't really have other news except that Lydia, who managed to contract a case of kennel cough from the Bordatella vaccination she had a week ago, is feeling better and back to her old springy self thanks to antibiotics. She loves taking her pills as she gets them wrapped up in a piece of lunch meat. I'm glad she's feeling better-a mopey dog is no fun.

Well, I have three days next week, then it's off to Wisconsin Thursday. We're back on Monday, which is Memorial Day, and seems quite early in the month to me. We have school Tuesday-Friday, then we're done. I hate going to school after Memorial Day but we had an extended Christmas break this year and this is the price to be paid.

Have a great Thursday all.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Mother Musings

It's Sunday, Mother's Day. I've had mixed feelings about this holiday, as I've always said that I'm a mother more like Roseanne than June Cleaver, although, I'm not a real fan of either of those TV icons. In a discussion with one of my sons yesterday, I was reminded again of my own foibles and, of how my adult offspring need my relationship with them to continue to change - but, it's kinda complicated. Most of the time, your grown-up kids need a parent for occasional advice and maybe babysitting grandkids once in awhile. But every so often, they need a "mom", or a "dad". It's hard to know how that works, but here's what I think - it's up to your kid. Your kid is kinda the one in charge of how they want your relationship to be (to a certain extent).

I have 3 kids and they're all different, they all need different things from me, but I hope they know that I love them, and I'll get it figured out one of these days. I have made mistakes and errors in judgment, and will continue to do so, but we'll get it worked out. I'd like to say to my kids, thanks for making my life richer and for teaching me more than I ever learned in a classroom. A big hug to Rebekah, Joshua, and Daniel-three blessings in life for me. I really kind of dislike the term "in-law", because Jason has become more of a son than an "in-law", and I appreciate his efforts to provide and care for our daughter. We will soon welcome another "in-law", Dara, and again, I think of her more as my daughter - she is already a part of our family. Joyce Landorf coined the term "daughter-in-love" and that might fit better than "in-law". Other kids in this family include my "adopted son" Bob, and, I would be remiss if I didn't mention Michael and Tiffani-you guys will always be a part of us. Blessings to each of you-Mom

Saturday, May 09, 2009

Lessons from Lydia-Waiting Patiently

It's early Saturday morning. I've just returned from about a 20 minute walk with the dog, Lydia. The wind's blowing, it's a little chilly, but the sun's out and it should be a nice day. Lydia seemed a little restless this morning so I thought some excercise would do both of us good. When I went to the bucket where we keep her toys and supplies and lifted the lid, she knew I was getting her walking collar and leash and excitedly twirled around me like an acrobat. In order to use this chain-like collar, I had to get training from my daughter, AND I had to practice with it before I could efficiently put it around the dog's neck and clip it. I don't think the hubby still to this day knows how to do this.

When I first rescued Lyd, I walked her with her regular collar, but she pulled so hard on the leash it was like she was walking me. Rebekah brought this collar to me and said, "You might want to teach her to walk with this, it will go a lot better". I was a little taken aback. The collar looks like a torture device, with long metal prongs which go next to her body as you put it on her neck. It fits semi-snugly. The first two or three times we used it, as she pulled away from me, yelp! She felt the prongs on her neck and immediately came back to my side. I felt bad about it hurting her but it didn't take long for her to learn to not strain at the leash and to walk more or less, with me.

She loves going for walks and thus she doesn't look at it like a torture device-she becomes very happy when she hears the lid open and the chain jangle. However, teaching her to sit still long enough for me to put it on has been difficult. She's catching on to the fact that if she'll just be patient and wait, we'll get to go out a lot quicker than if she's joyfully dancing around me, and today when I was attaching it, managed to sit a whole 5 seconds before getting to her feet and trying to move toward the door. She hasn't caught on to the concept of delayed gratification yet.

Waiting. It's not something we ever like doing, especially when we are waiting in anticipation for something wonderful to happen. But I wonder if in our excitement to get going, to get something resolved, or to get things happening, I wonder if we jeopardize our outcomes when we don't hold still long enough for necessary life growth to happen first. The result is similar to what happens with Lydia and the collar. The process becomes more painful for her as she wiggles and jumps because the collar pricks her in the neck. Also, and more importantly, when she's moving around it takes me longer to put it on her correctly, and her reward of going for a walk is substantially delayed until she cooperates. I dare say, the waiting process is many times far more important for us than finally obtaining what we've been waiting for.

Like Lydia, we often don't see waiting as a positive experience. And, I'm not saying that you need to vegetate while life happens for you-we need to be proactive and doing all that we can do with the time and resources we have. What I am saying is that sometimes, we need to be still and just practice waiting. Wait quietly. Body, mouth, and attitude. Breathe deeply. Sit still. Hope and anticipate, but without straining. The process is important, sometimes more important than the final outcome, and in fact, the growth that happens during the process could BE the final outcome that the Master Designer has in mind for you.

Here's the process: "....we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character; and character, hope. " (Romans 5:4, NIV).
Is Lydia "suffering" while she waits for me to put on the collar? She thinks so. Am I "suffering" as I wait for situations to be resolved and circumstances to change? In my narrow, can only see the moment in front of me viewpoint, yes.

The prophet Isaiah writes, "Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!" (Isaiah 30:18, NIV). May you be blessed while waiting in the week to come.

Friday, May 08, 2009

Friday Fortitude

It's Friday. I'm in a pretty good place, work wise, I think. I got a lot of testing done this past week, now I need to work on reports this weekend. Next week, I have a staffing on Monday, a staffing on Tuesday, 2 staffings on Thursday, and a staffing on Friday. Plus, I have 3 more kids to start this week. It'll be busy, but I'm hoping I'll be able to take off for Wisconsin without worrying about work-related issues. I am looking forward to my change in school assignment for the fall. I will be at a special school, with a special population of children. It's not too far from my base school, and will be a challenge, but will be a place for me to grow professionally.

As I've been thinking about this new adventure, part of my brain is already processing having to leave the familiar behind. I've never been one to burn bridges at any place I've worked, and I'm not going to start now, but...well..., as I wrap things up I am reminded once again that things are not always what they seem and a wise person trusts sparingly. There's a time to speak and a time for silence-to choose which in a given situation is always a challenge. I am upset by what appears to be someone being treated unfairly, however, I know that I don't know the whole story - and thus, I cannot say for sure who is right. This is a time for silence and to stay clear of ongoing conflict. I just need to hang in there for 3 more weeks and mind my own p's and q's-I am praying, though, that God who knows all, will act in defense of the innocent. I trust that someday, all will be set right, all will be brought to justice, the scales will balance, and all will be revealed for who and what they are.

My trust in man is brought up short every time. My trust in God remains.



It's late and I'm ywaning. Off to bed I go.

Some of my family went to see the new Star Trek movie Thursday night and have been raving about it to me, so, I guess I am headed to a matinee on Saturday with my youngest son. It's been awhile since I've been to a movie, but I usually enjoy going, depending on the movie, and the price I have to pay to get in. The last one I saw was "Fireproof", and that was quite awhile ago.

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

Tuesday Trimmings

It's Tuesday and things are shaping up so far. I had some unexpected time given to me as a gift today by the Master Scheduler, so I was able to get things done for two kids quicker than I thought I could. I had lost all hope of being able to attend a conference on Thursday about eating disorders, but now things are not looking quite so grim. I may be able to go, depending on what tomorrow holds.

I'm still working at home in the evenings, and tonight is no exception - I just took a minute to blog. When will warm weather arrive? Today was cloudy (again), rainy (again), and chilly (again). I am ready for 70's, and SUN. The yard is grown up in the back, still way to wet to push a mower through. My son offered to come over Thursday and do it, but I don't know if we'll be dried out enough by then, especially if we get more rain tomorrow. I may need to rent a brush hog by the time this is over.

So I see that Thomas Ethredge has landed back in Wichita, having been arrested in an airport in Texas. He now is charged with 10 counts of securities fraud as he tried to pull together financing for his theme park venture,Wild West World, back in 2007. He closed WWW only 2 months after opening it and filed bankruptcy. It IS unfortunate that he attempted to open it the day after a tornado blew Greensburg off the map, but I guess that's one of those things. The charges are that Mr. Ethredge failed to disclose some necessary information to investors, i.e., "he misrepresented the true nature of his prior business experience, he failed to disclose that he had multiple convictions for securities fraud and failed to pay restitution, he failed to disclose that he did not pay taxes in 2005, and he failed to disclose that he stopped making payments on the land for his other business, the Prairie Rose Chuckwagon Supper."

If all is true, Mr. Ethredge has swindled several people out of several hundred thousand dollars, and I know two of those people. We've been out to the Prairie Rose Chuckwagon Supper two or three times over the years and we've enjoyed the time we've spent there. Mr. Ethredge is a cowboy, a patriot, a faithful church member and tither, and seemingly, a faithful Christian - all of those things made him a genuinely likeable person. One time before all of this came to light, I overheard a conversation between two people about him. One person was telling the other person that he (Ethredge) was a crook, a cheat, and a liar, and that someday, it was all going to blow up in his face. I eavesdropped, interested in what was being said, and at that time, I was disturbed that anyone could say those things about such a fine gentleman.

Hmmm. If it's true, then it's a lesson learned for all of us. The NIV says in Matthew 10:16: "Be shrewd as snakes, and as innocent as doves." Timely words.

Sunday, May 03, 2009

The week ahead

I'm home from the day's activities - it's been busy. One of the more enjoyable things I did today was to attend a "man" shower for my son, who is getting married May 23. The deacons at church hosted this shower, and gifts were tool and home improvement oriented. He got a lot of useful things, among them, duct tape, a socket set, a nice shovel, a top of the line level, a set of allen wrenches, some "Gorilla" glue, and a cordless drill. Tables were decorated with toilet paper and paper towel rolls, which were positioned on red shop rags. It was a lot of fun.

In the next 10 work days, I have to finish 12 evaluations. Two of those are completed and I just need to write the report on them. 6 are in progress, and 4 I haven't started yet. It takes 3-4 sessions to finish an evaluation and a couple of hours to write each one up. I've seen reports from some other psychologists that seem to have as little written as possible, but frankly, I don't like to do things that way. I'm writing my report not only for parents, but also for future educators and psychologists who will be working with that child. It doesn't need to be long and drawn out, but it does need to be clear and succinct, and give all pertinent information.

I told somebody this evening that I will get through the next two weeks literally one hour, or one half hour at a time. If I look at the end, I will "grow fainthearted and discouraged". If I prioritize each day, work efficiently, and take care of that days needs, everything should fall into place. My prayer is that I won't get sick, that kids I'm working with won't get sick, and that everything will hum along according to schedule. My prayer for you, my readers, is that you will have a productive week, and that you will be effective wherever you've been called to serve.

Friday, May 01, 2009

What?

So I followed a car home from work today. The car had a vanity plate. The vanity plate read:

DEPRAVE

The dictionary definition for "deprave" is: to make morally bad or evil; vitiate; corrupt.
http://www.dictionary.com/

Perhaps I'm missing something. Can anyone tell me why someone would want to pay money to have the word DEPRAVE on their vanity plate? I'm just asking. If anyone has any ideas, please share. I'm puzzled. I'm not judging, understand, I'm just...well, puzzled.

Friday

Good morning! It's Friday and normally, people sort of start winding down and wrapping things up. Unless you're planning on working at home on the weekend. Then it's time to think about what paperwork you need to bring home to conquer. That's me. I concurrently have 8 or 10 evaluations going, all in different stages of completeness. Every kid has a folder with information in it, and it's organized such that I know where I'm at with each evaluation. Today I have on my agenda to have sessions with 4 or 5 of these children. One thing this job requires is organization-I've talked about the wonderful planner I use in a previous posting, but it also requires some kind of office system to keep things in place. Everybody does it differently, and you just have to find something that works, the key being, it has to work for you.

So last night, I dreamed, I think several times, that I was walking along somewhere and I just kept falling down-my shoes would slip, or I'd step in a hole, or something, and I'd be down. The thing is, I never knew why I was falling, but always, some kind soul would come along as I was laying on the street and point out the obvious-THIS is why you fell-you slipped on mud, or look here, you stepped in a hole, or whatever. I don't put a lot of stock in dream analysis, but I thought this was interesting. Maybe the point is, it seems that when we make a mistake, others can see plainly why we did, and are "helpful" to point that out to us when often, we may not have a clue as to why we stumbled. We just know we did. Hmmm. What do you think?