This last work week ended on Friday with a parent meeting which was one of the most intense, dramatic, and challenging I have ever been a part of. I walked out Friday evening feeling exhausted and run over - but the second I drove away from school, I began to try to put things in perspective. Toxic people can only spread their poison when they are allowed to do so. Easier said than done, I know, because it can overtake even the most grounded person if not dealt with carefully. It still hurt last night when I went to bed.
Today - not so much. We had an extra rehearsal for "Messiah" this morning. Standing to sing "Worthy is the Lamb", I realized that I not only was joining a multitude of voices who have sung this chorus before, but I also was singing with those who have gone on to glory, who right then were saying these very words before a Heavenly throne... "Worthy is the Lamb who was slain, to receive power, and riches, and wisdom, and strength, and honor, and glory, and blessing."
The angry parent faded away. The hurtful words faded away. I know who I am - I know Who loves me. I know Whom I have believed. I know Who I belong to. I know Who my Father is. I know. I'm grateful for this reminder. This is why I continue to sing Messiah every year and as long as I can, I will. The music and words transcend all earthly agonies and help me focus on the glories of eternity which I cannot begin to imagine.
Saturday, October 28, 2017
Thursday, October 05, 2017
More Musings
Had another "brain event" on Sunday, October 1. It's the weirdest thing and so hard to describe to someone who has never had a seizure. It's truly the brain on overload, and then, there are things that have to happen in recouperation. Today was the first day I worked a full day and all was well.
According to the handsome neurologist, there were several things contributing to this seizure, sort of like the perfect storm. Meds were increased and a sternly worded exhortation was heard regarding signs and symptoms which I overlooked in the busyness of life. He does not expect me to have another one with this med increase, particularly if I take care of myself and note when I may be having signs indicating future problems. I'm fortunate, I had warning time before this one, and actually, had I been paying attention, I had about 2 days of warning signs.
In other news, I'm continuing to try to stay off of Facebook at least with the commenting I COULD
be doing, and I've cut way back on posting statuses. It is not worth it to me to be misunderstood or to unintentionally hurt someone's feelings while I'm passionately defending or promoting a position. I'm also in the process of just letting several things go - water under the bridge - my job here is to live at peace, especially with those I call family. Living a quiet, peaceful life just trusting God minute by minute is the challenge and is a lifestyle I long to emulate. Dying to self and selfish desires, including the desire to be heard on every topic which is posted will be a life-long quest for me.
In the meantime, things I could have posted but didn't (I feel I can do that here because no one reads this blog):
In 11 years of doing this job, I've never seen so many broken children at my base school. It is heartbreaking and stressful.
Love this weather - we finally got rain, but it's almost too warm for October!
Really? Pumpkin spice underwear?
NFL players - you can stand or kneel, I don't care. Just do your job. And no matter your opinions, I hope you are volunteering and making a difference in your corner of the world. You have been given much, much will be required from you. You are role models. Live responsibly and faithfully to what you've been called to do.
There's no tired like a good tired, and a good rest.
In the middle of the night, I wake up and hear music in my head. It's a great comfort to me.
See ya next time.
According to the handsome neurologist, there were several things contributing to this seizure, sort of like the perfect storm. Meds were increased and a sternly worded exhortation was heard regarding signs and symptoms which I overlooked in the busyness of life. He does not expect me to have another one with this med increase, particularly if I take care of myself and note when I may be having signs indicating future problems. I'm fortunate, I had warning time before this one, and actually, had I been paying attention, I had about 2 days of warning signs.
In other news, I'm continuing to try to stay off of Facebook at least with the commenting I COULD
be doing, and I've cut way back on posting statuses. It is not worth it to me to be misunderstood or to unintentionally hurt someone's feelings while I'm passionately defending or promoting a position. I'm also in the process of just letting several things go - water under the bridge - my job here is to live at peace, especially with those I call family. Living a quiet, peaceful life just trusting God minute by minute is the challenge and is a lifestyle I long to emulate. Dying to self and selfish desires, including the desire to be heard on every topic which is posted will be a life-long quest for me.
In the meantime, things I could have posted but didn't (I feel I can do that here because no one reads this blog):
In 11 years of doing this job, I've never seen so many broken children at my base school. It is heartbreaking and stressful.
Love this weather - we finally got rain, but it's almost too warm for October!
Really? Pumpkin spice underwear?
NFL players - you can stand or kneel, I don't care. Just do your job. And no matter your opinions, I hope you are volunteering and making a difference in your corner of the world. You have been given much, much will be required from you. You are role models. Live responsibly and faithfully to what you've been called to do.
There's no tired like a good tired, and a good rest.
In the middle of the night, I wake up and hear music in my head. It's a great comfort to me.
See ya next time.
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